The Writing Vagrant

Grains of sand

You are easily separated

A hive shaped mind of your own

Like nothing I’d ever seen

Grown out of impatience and jealousy

I grew so curious

You worked to cut

Cut my vines

Destroy the order I’ve created

Traveling from planet to planet, galaxy to galaxy

You mean to leave and wreak destruction

Your next little project

Think I’m separate like you

Not realizing I’ve been watching you

And I’m all the same one

The one you tried to lord over

The one you killed, yes, that one too

Lording for the sake of lording

Killing for the sake of killing

Matter for the sake of matter

Existence for the sake of existence

Running for the sake of running

Cutting for the sake of cutting

Not happy

Not alive

Very clever

But where do you think you’re going?

Where females must face what males are. Males are only capable of understanding the world in terms of dominance and submission.

If a female is walking around still trying to talk to and relate to males (the majority of whom who cannot relate), she is living in a narcissistic fantasy world. She is directly responsible for perpetuating the destruction of the world.

It is time to end this. Males need to be thoroughly and completely dominated. That is what they know and respond to.

If two males fight and one wins, the other accepts it and sees the male who won as dominant over him. He ACCEPTS this. The only reason females are still being pushed around is because they do not understand this.

We’re getting an error message: style of interaction failure.

This means change the style of interaction.

Males are easily dominated mentally. This is female strength, not physical but mental. And as dogs and circus animals of all kinds have so wonderfully taught us, brute strength is trumped by mental strength.

Time to give up the dream. Time to stop pretending he will ever understand me.

The idea being hammered by a number of male gurus and psychedelic “experts” is that life around us is “only an illusion!”

The phrase is used as a gag for people, mainly female, who speak the truth about their lives. The truth often involves grievous abuse at the hands of family and males.

What better way to confuse a female and render her life’s experiences null in not only HER head but the collective conscience of humanity than to tell her everything she’s experienced up until now and including now is an illusion!

I can’t think of one.

I myself was held captive to this life-deadening belief for over 2 years. It hung like a veil over my face, rendering me unable to fully experience my body, the environment around me, the people I came into contact with. Why? Because I truly believed that everything around me was an illusion. False. Unreal.

The psychological manifestations of believing this to be true are thus:

1. Loss of energy and motivation: Why try to affect change of my environment if everything is an illusion? What does it matter? It’s not real anyway.

2. Loss of boundaries: As an outcome of assuming everything is indeed an illusion, the believer can believe either that she has created the illusion or that she is an illusion herself trapped within a greater illusion.
This fosters narcissism either way, because if she assumes she has created the illusion, she is at once extremely self-confident and insecure, for the “illusion” surrounding her is extremely complex, detailed, but at the same time extremely horrific (due to male sexual, physical, mental violence).
If she believes that she herself is an illusion trapped within a greater illusion over which she has no control, she sees herself as a helpless pawn. Such a framework inspires feelings of worthlessness, shame, helplessness. It is the mindset at the very root of fatalism (which a foundational building block of all major world religions).

The reason for instilling belief that “everything is only an illusion” is thus:

To inspire helplessness and fatalism in females so that males can carry on destroying the world. This is the male mission. Whether or not the male is a virus (as I have discussed in a previous post), it is obvious from his behavior that he is not interested in the preservation, maintenance, or growth of life.

Life is not an illusion.
Life on this planet is real.
Life is real.
Life is love.
Love is free.
Life and love are worth every ounce of strength we have, every moment of work we do to bring reality, Love, into fruition.

Love is life, and life is free.
-Erykah Badu

Females are starved of the opportunity and knowledge that leads to the creativity and confidence necessary to create and cultivate one’s SELF.

Looking inward, these females mistake genetic traits [such as eye color, hair texture, a certain facial quirk inherited from their mother, a personality trait inherited from their father] for themSELVES.

When SELF is truly the unique work of art, observation, creativity, and expression of any given female that cannot be duplicated by anyone, ever again.

The female in question mistakes genetic traits for her SELF. When this is done, she embarks on proving an error: that limited external genetic traits account for the potential of her internal SELF (which is really unlimited).

Unimpressed with this false SELF, she tries to prove the error in thinking (that genetic traits are her SELF) by adopting a sense of superiority derived from pride in her external, limited genetic traits and genetic background (family NARCISSISM).

The logical outcome of this family narcissism is to reproduce, because the female has invested the energy and potential of her SELF into maintaining the delusion that genetic resemblances are her SELF. She makes this investment tangible by creating a baby.

She creates a baby instead of her SELF. Her potential is now clouded by the dependency of another human being, one in particular who needs her utmost care and attention for at least 5 years after its birth.

All of this is wasted time and energy in terms of creating a SELF. She has only one life to live, one self to give. And she has been tricked into giving up this precious opportunity to contribute to the world for at least 5-10 years after giving birth.

Just think about how much time this adds up to be. Years upon years of wasted female energy, potential, SELF: accumulated in the act of childrearing and birth, not to mention the years of brainwashing it takes to eliminate a female’s SELF-agency to the point where she would consider having a child, especially in the overpopulated world of today.

Pay:

To make due return to for services rendered or property delivered

To suffer the consequences of an act

To requite according to what is deserved

To give in return for goods or service

At the very root of the word lies the definition:

To suffer the consequences of an act

Every time I pay for something even as simple as an apple, I am suffering the consequences of wanting to eat it and picking it up with the intention to eat it within the money system.

That may sound dramatic, but I am suffering (loss of money) because I have to pay (money) for the consequences (less money to spend) of an act (choosing to eat an apple).

Now why should I have to suffer just to eat? I shouldn’t, is the rational answer.

But we are not dealing with something rational. Money and the concept of paying are not rational concepts, and they were not formulated by rational beings.

Money isn’t the root of the issue, here. Paying is. Paying punishes the payer. And who’s paying more, by and large? Men, or women? Let’s see:

• Elderly women are far more likely to be poor than elderly men.Thirteen percent of women over 75 years old are poor compared to 6 percent of men.
• Poverty rates for males and females are the same throughout childhood, but increase for women during their childbearing years and again in old age. The poverty gap between women and men widens significantly between ages 18 and 24—20.6 percent of women are poor at that age, compared to 14.0 percent of men. The gap narrows, but never closes, throughout adult life, and it more than doubles during the elderly years.
• Women are poorer than men in all racial and ethnic groups. Recent data shows that 26.5 percent of African American women are poor compared to 22.3 percent of African American men; 23.6 percent of Hispanic women are poor compared to 19.6 percent of Hispanic men; 10.7 percent of Asian women are poor compared to 9.7 percent of Asian men; and 11.6 percent of white women are poor compared to 9.4 percent of white men.

It would seem that women are paying a lot more than men. Why? The simple answer is because women are poorer than men on average. Poor people suffer (loss of money) the consequences (less money to spend) for their actions (eating (food bill), sleeping (rent bill)).

So do rich people, right? A rich man who buys a Ferrari suffers (loss of money) the consequences (less money to spend) of his actions (acquiring a new car).

But the difference between a man who can afford a Ferrari and a single mother on welfare is that the rich man has a large amount of money and the single mother has a small amount of money.

It’s like sitting on a pillow full of money atop a bed of nails:

The rich man has a thick, fat pillow, which means he can’t feel any nails on his ass. If he decides to take some money from that pillow to pay for something, there is still plenty of money in the pillow to keep the nails from poking his ass.

The single mother has a thin pillow, which means she can already feel some nails on her ass. If she decides to take some money from that pillow to pay for something, there is even less money in the pillow to keep the nails from poking her ass.

Which makes the real issue not the amount of money one has, but the existence of a bed of nails in the first place. The bed of nails exists, but why?

Because it has been manufactured. Beds of nails don’t spring out of the ground. Who has it been manufactured by?

By the very beings that manufactured the concept of money.

It’s a circular system: They’ve built a bed of nails, inserted it underneath us all, and have offered us a solution to keeping our asses from being poked by the nails.

Who’re they? The creators of money. Who are the creators of money? It is impossible to say, although it is very clear that those who benefit most from the creation of money are almost always male. Working backwards from that observation, would it be wrong to assume that the creators/sustainers of money and the money system are male?

I don’t think it would. This assumption would certainly explain a lot of things.

Things like beings who are fully aware of their miserable, unoriginal, boring, half-dead state in relation to their fully alive (needisaymore?) female counterparts devising methods to torture females in a vain attempt to assuage their constant feelings of resentment and anger.

Next up: why what we create is a reflection of what we like, and why beds of nails actually turn men on! {insert *bowchikawowow* ™ here}

The following story is a small scale example of what happens when females reject the fear-mongering of males. Males want to keep females on a bed of pins and needles so that they can feed off of female fear-energy. It’s what keeps them alive/hard.

When we are not afraid, they are intimidated because they know that when we ARE afraid, we can’t think straight. When we AREN’T afraid, we can think straight. When we can think straight, we can see them for what they are, and that is fear-energy parasites.

When we AREN’T afraid, we can see through, above, and over their tiny psychological landscape. The only thing stopping us is fear. The more we resist fear, the more they will try to keep us afraid. They will ramp up their tactics and stop at nothing. They will abuse, rape, torture, maim, kill us until we have nothing to lose by not being afraid. And then, only then, they will disappear…

STORAGE GAMES

My biggest mistake was telling Vic that I slept at my storage unit from time to time.

Vic was another homeless man who also slept at the storage facility. The difference between him and I was that he had permission from the manager to do so. In exchange for several chores per week, Vic was allowed to use the storage space as an apartment of sorts.

Vic and I talked occasionally. Rather, when I and Vic were in the same general vicinity, Vic would come over and proceed to fill my ear with monologues about his life. Gradually the focus of the monologues shifted from his life to dramatic tales about others who slept inside the storage unit…

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There are many scientific speculations as to why males exist. I located one of the more compelling in a journal article titled “Relationships between Vertebrate ZW and XY Sex Chromosome Systems” (detailing the relationships between the chromosome systems of birds, reptiles, and mammals).

A quote from the article explains:

“Early speculations … proposed that sex chromosomes started out as an ordinary autosomal pair. Then, one member acquired a sex determining allele and accumulated male-advantage genes in a non-recombining region that progressively degraded”

Chromosomes are the organized structures of DNA inside our cells containing genes and the chemicals that express those genes in unique ways. Autosomal chromosomes are not involved in sex determination. In human cells there are 22 autosomal chromosomes and only 1 allosome. An allosome is a sex determining chromosome.

What the quote above is theorizing is that in the beginning there were ONLY pairs of autosomal chromosomes (that presumably generated new cells by means of parthenogenesis) when one pair mysteriously acquired the ability to fuck the other into dividing and replicating.

Not only that, but the newly endowed pair of chromosomes had the ability to determine whether or not the cell resulting from fucking would also have the ability to fuck or not. More fuckers were born, along with fuckees. And the cycle continued on.

My question/theory is this:

Could it possibly be that the pair of chromosomes that acquired this new and mysterious ability to fuck was actually driven to do so because the pair was infected by a virus?

I say yes. I also say that the virus in question is what we call sperm.

I see it like this:

Sperm was floating through the biosphere and found its’ way to a parthenogenentically reproducing living cell. It forcefully injected the cell with its genome. Once inside the cell, sperm began to manufacture replicants of itself that resembled the host cell (making it hard for the host cell to differentiate between itself and the pathogen infecting it). The host cell released the pathogenic strain of itself out into the biosphere as it would a parthenogenetically created version of itself, not realizing that the pathogenic strain would be back to forcefully inject its’ genome many times over.

Viruses replicate by way of the following process:

1. Adsorption - virus binds to the host cell.
   Sperm likely bound itself to the original, wholly autosomal cell
2. Penetration - virus injects its genome into host cell.
   Sperm likely injected its genome into the autosomal cell, resulting in the extra chromosome, the sex selector
3. Viral Genome Replication - viral genome replicates using the host’s cellular machinery.
   Sperm replicates using the machinery of the cell to create copies of itself that resemble the host cell: Males! Males are not alive, they are sperm replicants
4. Assembly - viral components and enzymes are produced and begin to assemble.
   Another male baby is formed.
5. Maturation - viral components assemble and viruses fully develop.
   Male child fully develops.
6. Release - newly produced viruses are expelled from the host cell.
   Male child is born, lives, fucks, dies, does what he can to continue cycle.

This alone does not account for the fact that females are born.

But this does: without proper hosts, the virus couldn’t continue. If only males were born, it would quickly be obvious that females were bearing their death and females would cease having males. Throw in the ability to sex select for more host cells. An added advantage is that this confuses the host cells by binding them emotionally to ALL offspring (even those pesky viral ones).

And finally, to have the ability to select for more host cells prolongs the life of the virus: more host bodies to create more virus carriers! Yay!

It really explains so much:

1. Why males and their nervous systems are so puny (mentally, emotionally, psychologically)

2. Why they’re so bent on destruction

3. Why they’re so eerily in unison: they’re empty because they’re a facsimile of an actual living being, the facsimile carefully hiding their pathogenic nature, the nature they all share, they know it but hide it because it is so hideous, they know they must or else they will be destroyed. It is a shallow nature, they are shallow beings, so utterly shallow as to share the same mindset by and large and are thus able to act in unison easily

4. Why most if not all of the major male religions stress the existence of females as birth “vessels”: The host cell is, truly, a vessel to any given virus, who uses the genetic material within to replicate itself

5. The historical preference for males and male children

6. The dating process:

1. Adsorption - virus binds to the host cell.
   Courtship, Marriage
2. Penetration - virus injects its genome into host cell.
   Sex!
3. Viral Genome Replication - viral genome replicates using the host’s cellular machinery.
   Conception!
4. Assembly - viral components and enzymes are produced and begin to assemble.
   Fetus!
5. Maturation - viral components assemble and viruses fully develop.
   Fetus maturation!
6. Release - newly produced viruses are expelled from the host cell.
   Birth!

7. Why males stress family and babies so much. As viruses, their only purpose in life is to replicate

8. Why they are literally shriveling before our eyes: the virus is being defeated

There will be more on the viral nature of patriarchy.